An Apology to the Players of Lost Years
by Wolfang
Sept 25, 1998

After dealing with accusation and threat and flame after flame, I've 
come to a decision. I would like to offer my most sincere and deepest 
apologies to the players of Lost Years. I would like to preface this by 
saying that this apology does not apply to all of the players there; 
merely the ones who've had some problem or another with me.

I'm sorry that you're too fucking stupid to realize that I have better 
things to do with my time than log onto your shithole MUSH and "harrass" 
you. I'm sorry that I've had to mnpagelock myself just to avoid "Squeal 
Gayvidson's" constant nagging and whining and threatening to stop doing 
something I'm not even doing.

I'm sorry that I don't have an AOL account, so you can't accuse every 
annoying guest from there of being me. I'm sorry that I haven't even 
logged into that piece of shit for well over a year, and that I don't 
even remember the address without looking at Mudnet. I'm sorry that I 
haven't cooperated with you by being the horrible person you'd like to 
paint me as.

I'm sorry that you've deluded yourselves into thinking that I'm somehow 
jealous of you. I'm also sorry that I'm unable to support that delusion 
by actually giving a shit. I'm sorry for being a human being, with RL 
considerations and RL friends, and that I place more value on 
friendships than Transformers. I'm sorry for having a sense of humor and 
the ability to see someone else's point of view without condemning them 
for it. I'm sorry for having feelings that can be hurt, like anyone 
else. I'm sorry for having the gall to get angry when people lie about 
me and accuse me of doing things I know nothing about.

I'm sorry to those of you who're still under the impression that Raksha 
is your friend, and I sympathize with the eventual flaming and branding 
as a traitor that you'll receive when you inevitably disagree with her 
on some matter, however small. I'm sorry that I tried to befriend 
"Squeal," only to have him try to take advantage of that friendship at 
every possible turn by trying to get special privileges, and finally 
blowing up at me for refusing to take down a webpage of which I'm not 
even the Webmaster. I'm sorry that some assholes won't just have the 
common decency to spontaneously combust and make the world a better 
place.

I'm genuinely sorry to those of you who have never met me, and know me 
only by the venemous lies told about me. I'm sorry for those of you who 
had to get stuck with that shithole as your first introduction to the 
online Transformers universe. We're not all fascist, hateful and small-
minded people like some.

I'm sorry for liking all Transformers, and not just Decepticons. I'm 
sorry for liking Beast Wars, and being a "mindless sheep spoon-fed my 
opinions by Hasbro." I'm sorry for ever having been born, and for making 
your lives so unbearable just by existing. I'm sorry for making myself 
such a target for all the flames -- silly me, I should have KNOWN not to 
disagree with Raksha on anything -- and I'm sorry for daring to defend 
myself. I'm sorry for trying to be a nice person and getting shit on for 
it.

I'm sorry... but you can go to hell.